Eternity, I think about that word a lot lately. What does it truly mean. Is “Eternity “ forever? Or does it mean forever feels like right now.
Because that is what forever feels like to me, right now. Right now, I feel empty, lost, and abandoned.
Right now, I am sitting alone in this gigantic vacuum of emptiness, that is my life. This cold lonely place I call me.
I am not so much afraid of right now. No, it is more like I now understand that I am hopelessly consumed by my abject despair.
This is a foundational truth of who I am. A realization of who I really am. Who I really have been, and most importantly, who I will never be.
That is who I am, a lost cause. A person who is destined to just drift endlessly between dreams of the great things that might have been. And the reality of my complete and utter abject failure.
My failure is real and it has completely consumed me. I have been betrayed by the only one who could truly betray me, me!
This is a cold and hard reality of who I really am. The bitter reality of me.
I am and always will be the reason this has happened to me.
The ugly truth that I have, and always will fail. Because I am the cause, and effect of who I am. I am my failure, I am my pain. And It is my destiny to suffer thru my infinite failures!
“This is the truth of me”.
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